Today was a good day in that, today was the first day I spent all alone for the first time, and I actually drove my truck for the first time in nearly 2 months. I felt almost human! The doctors on Monday finally gave me clearance to drive on the days I'm not receiving chemotherapy. So that was a nice bonus to all that's been going on. Ask anyone who knows me...I'm typically a pretty self-sufficient dude. So having to depend on people is not really in my nature. I actually loathe it. (It's one of the reasons I have a truck...so I don't have to borrow one!) I don't mind lending her out though, don't get me wrong. But having to depend on people is something I've had to get used to. My wife has been helpful with everything, and I can't thank her enough for it. But getting a small sense of normalcy gradually spun back into my life, like driving, has lifted my spirits considerably.
I'll be honest here too, I'm still struggling with smoking cigarettes. I know...I know...you don't have to tell me. Katie tells me 'you've already got one cancer...you don't need another one!' And she couldn't be more right, and I'm not debating it. But it's one of the few things I can do that gives me a sense of my well-being back. I haven't given up on quitting though...I'm promise. And I've only had a few cigarettes each day...it's not like I'm a winter chimney or anything.
Hopefully tomorrow or Friday my new glasses will be in and I can pick those up. I ordered a new pair of glasses because the ones I currently wear are cumbersome and uncomfortable. I'm so used to wearing contacts, that I hardly wore my glasses at all. While I'm undergoing treatment with chemotherapy, I'm not allowed to wear my contacts, for fear of damage to my eyes or infection. So, hopefully my new ones will be in soon, and I'll be much more comfortable!
More later.
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Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Day 27: Normalcy Gradually
Today was a good day in that, today was the first day I spent all alone for the first time, and I actually drove my truck for the first time in nearly 2 months. I felt almost human! The doctors on Monday finally gave me clearance to drive on the days I'm not receiving chemotherapy. So that was a nice bonus to all that's been going on. Ask anyone who knows me...I'm typically a pretty self-sufficient dude. So having to depend on people is not really in my nature. I actually loathe it. (It's one of the reasons I have a truck...so I don't have to borrow one!) I don't mind lending her out though, don't get me wrong. But having to depend on people is something I've had to get used to. My wife has been helpful with everything, and I can't thank her enough for it. But getting a small sense of normalcy gradually spun back into my life, like driving, has lifted my spirits considerably.
I'll be honest here too, I'm still struggling with smoking cigarettes. I know...I know...you don't have to tell me. Katie tells me 'you've already got one cancer...you don't need another one!' And she couldn't be more right, and I'm not debating it. But it's one of the few things I can do that gives me a sense of my well-being back. I haven't given up on quitting though...I'm promise. And I've only had a few cigarettes each day...it's not like I'm a winter chimney or anything.
Hopefully tomorrow or Friday my new glasses will be in and I can pick those up. I ordered a new pair of glasses because the ones I currently wear are cumbersome and uncomfortable. I'm so used to wearing contacts, that I hardly wore my glasses at all. While I'm undergoing treatment with chemotherapy, I'm not allowed to wear my contacts, for fear of damage to my eyes or infection. So, hopefully my new ones will be in soon, and I'll be much more comfortable!
More later.
I'll be honest here too, I'm still struggling with smoking cigarettes. I know...I know...you don't have to tell me. Katie tells me 'you've already got one cancer...you don't need another one!' And she couldn't be more right, and I'm not debating it. But it's one of the few things I can do that gives me a sense of my well-being back. I haven't given up on quitting though...I'm promise. And I've only had a few cigarettes each day...it's not like I'm a winter chimney or anything.
Hopefully tomorrow or Friday my new glasses will be in and I can pick those up. I ordered a new pair of glasses because the ones I currently wear are cumbersome and uncomfortable. I'm so used to wearing contacts, that I hardly wore my glasses at all. While I'm undergoing treatment with chemotherapy, I'm not allowed to wear my contacts, for fear of damage to my eyes or infection. So, hopefully my new ones will be in soon, and I'll be much more comfortable!
More later.
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Back in the saddle again! I bet the first time out felt like it did when you were 16 and were able to take the car out all by yourself! Hey here's a thought, when you are feeling that you have enough energy, I can email my shopping list to you! Could be a new money making opportunity!!
ReplyDeleteI'm still doing the Happy Dance from earlier in the week for you both. Being another guy who loves to eat, I can only imagine what it's like to re-learn what you do and don't like. Hang in there. I thought of this article when I read about your working through that process. Maybe it will offer some help.
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http://www.guideposts.com/story/cancer-cooking
So, I thought I posted to the other blog the other day, but can no longer find my post. Anyway, just to drop a comment here....
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Again, I sought to inspire, but keep finding myself inspired. I know this will all be a distant speck in the rearview mirror before too long.
My entire parish is praying for you and, in my own daily prayers, I pray that you will have the strength you need and that you and Katie and your whole family will grow closer through this experience.
Thanks for the link Dave. Very good read.
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And thank you Clay for the kind words, we certainly appreciate it!
Sharon - I doubt my doc reads this blog, much less knows it exists. *wink*
AnonymousFebruary 24, 2009 at 5:09 PMSmoking is tough. I never got the habit, but lots of people in my family do. If it helps any, the physical addiction is gone after 5-10 days of not smoking (depends on the person and the habit and the body chemistry). But, your brain remembers that ZAP that the nicotine provides, and the psychological battle is another one entirely. I salute anybody that can beat a habit like that.
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Back in the saddle again! I bet the first time out felt like it did when you were 16 and were able to take the car out all by yourself! Hey here's a thought, when you are feeling that you have enough energy, I can email my shopping list to you! Could be a new money making opportunity!!
ReplyDeleteI'm still doing the Happy Dance from earlier in the week for you both. Being another guy who loves to eat, I can only imagine what it's like to re-learn what you do and don't like. Hang in there. I thought of this article when I read about your working through that process. Maybe it will offer some help.
ReplyDeletehttp://www.guideposts.com/story/cancer-cooking
Does your doctor read this blog? Just curious! ~~00~~ rolling my eyes!!!
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ReplyDeleteSo, I thought I posted to the other blog the other day, but can no longer find my post. Anyway, just to drop a comment here....
ReplyDeleteAgain, I sought to inspire, but keep finding myself inspired. I know this will all be a distant speck in the rearview mirror before too long.
My entire parish is praying for you and, in my own daily prayers, I pray that you will have the strength you need and that you and Katie and your whole family will grow closer through this experience.
Thanks for the link Dave. Very good read.
ReplyDeleteAnd thank you Clay for the kind words, we certainly appreciate it!
Sharon - I doubt my doc reads this blog, much less knows it exists. *wink*
Smoking is tough. I never got the habit, but lots of people in my family do. If it helps any, the physical addiction is gone after 5-10 days of not smoking (depends on the person and the habit and the body chemistry). But, your brain remembers that ZAP that the nicotine provides, and the psychological battle is another one entirely. I salute anybody that can beat a habit like that.
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