Day 19: Emotions Awry
It's always funny living in a suburban community, where you're nestled in a house between others like yours, involving waving neighbors, and matching mailboxes. Because I'm usually a pretty 'outdoorsy' kind of a dude, I know the neighbors, they know me, and to some extent, we sort of know eachother's schedules. (But not in a nosy kind of way.) In early January, my wife and I were heading into the emergency room because of my difficulty breathing one night, when she got the car stuck in the road near the end of the driveway. Thankfully, one of our neighbors had just gotten home, and helped us get un-stuck before we sped off to the ER. Just a few minutes ago, my wife goes outside to get the mail and is approached by the same neighbor who got us un-stuck not so long ago, and asks how I've been, 1) because he hasn't seen me outside; 2) heard that I broke my arm from another neighbor! Hahahaha 
So, all in all, it's funny listening to what happens when your neighbors start to notice things.
One of the things I mentioned in an earlier post was that I understood more now about a women's hormones and some of their emotions. Ever since I've started treatment for Leukemia, I have never been so up, down, left, right, middle, near or far away from what I would call a 'normal feeling.' And it's not because of the initial, 'oh crap, I have cancer, what am I going to do?' reaction either. Because we've pulled through that, and are weathering this storm head on. By the time we come back to port, our hull will be clean as a whistle! However, in the meantime, I have the chemo once a week, and all the daily drugs to go along with it. And they've made me freakin' crazy emotional. If I see something sad on TV, I'll cry. I can't even open more than two sympathy cards in a row without getting weepy. It's awful! I get weepy talking to friends and family on the phone...oh man...it's gotta stop! It's like I have no barrier to shield myself from those things any more. They just happen without warning. So, if that's anything similar to what a woman feels during that time of the month or during menopause, I am so sorry! I will try to be more sensitive to that in the future...I swear!
Day 19: Emotions Awry
It's always funny living in a suburban community, where you're nestled in a house between others like yours, involving waving neighbors, and matching mailboxes. Because I'm usually a pretty 'outdoorsy' kind of a dude, I know the neighbors, they know me, and to some extent, we sort of know eachother's schedules. (But not in a nosy kind of way.) In early January, my wife and I were heading into the emergency room because of my difficulty breathing one night, when she got the car stuck in the road near the end of the driveway. Thankfully, one of our neighbors had just gotten home, and helped us get un-stuck before we sped off to the ER. Just a few minutes ago, my wife goes outside to get the mail and is approached by the same neighbor who got us un-stuck not so long ago, and asks how I've been, 1) because he hasn't seen me outside; 2) heard that I broke my arm from another neighbor! Hahahaha So, all in all, it's funny listening to what happens when your neighbors start to notice things.
One of the things I mentioned in an earlier post was that I understood more now about a women's hormones and some of their emotions. Ever since I've started treatment for Leukemia, I have never been so up, down, left, right, middle, near or far away from what I would call a 'normal feeling.' And it's not because of the initial, 'oh crap, I have cancer, what am I going to do?' reaction either. Because we've pulled through that, and are weathering this storm head on. By the time we come back to port, our hull will be clean as a whistle! However, in the meantime, I have the chemo once a week, and all the daily drugs to go along with it. And they've made me freakin' crazy emotional. If I see something sad on TV, I'll cry. I can't even open more than two sympathy cards in a row without getting weepy. It's awful! I get weepy talking to friends and family on the phone...oh man...it's gotta stop! It's like I have no barrier to shield myself from those things any more. They just happen without warning. So, if that's anything similar to what a woman feels during that time of the month or during menopause, I am so sorry! I will try to be more sensitive to that in the future...I swear!
Now you know what I mean when I tell you watching movies always makes me cry, certain commercials make me cry, seeing someone I hadn't seen in over a month.....that really makes me cry. Of course those are happy tears. Pretty soon you will be able to have nothing but happy tears!!
ReplyDeleteJonathon, do NOT under ANY circumstances watch the movie "Beaches" anytime soon. Damn movie made me cry without any extra chemicals.
ReplyDeleteI'm serious, man, stay FAR AWAY from it.
So I'm reading your post and the tears are welling up in my eyes and I'm not sure if I should laugh or cry along with you. But one thing I'm sure of...I want my husband to read this! I guess I won't rent Beaches afterall thanks to Bruce! Oh wait, I know what you need.... Watch Mama Mia, again!
ReplyDeleteHahahaha - I've already seen Beaches. My mother made me watch that one long ago. But, yes it's true...even like Donna mentioned, certain commercials can do it too! It's horrible!
ReplyDeleteForget "Beaches", don't watch "Iron Giant"! The end part about Superman....just thinking about it...*sniff*. Try to stay away from Hallmark commercials. Those get me everytime, and now Valentines day....it's a conspiracy I tells ya! Iron Giant...watch it people! Puts Beaches to shame! For that matter, "Bubba Hotep"....cried at the end of that one too!
ReplyDeleteBruce - thank you for the masks! That was very nice of you!
ReplyDeleteHappy to help, Jonathon. Those things should protect you from a nerve gas attack, much less any stupid virals and bacterials floating around! Soji uses those when they have to suppress her immune system when the lupus goes crazy.
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